7DPO

7DPO 7DPO! One more week to wait! AF is due in 2 days... CF is still sticky. Cervix is high, soft, and open, but today its higher than it was yesterday. Like I could feel it yesterday today it was very high, I could barely feel it. No signs of AF. Been tired, and irritable. But as we all know, PMS is so similar to pregnancy. So I wait, and hope that this week goes by quick, with no AF! :) Temps staying around the same degree. 98.4 to 98.89. I've had odd cramping, but no spotting. To Add: Got a reading done by Ezra May, and she says that she predicts a BOY in March/April. Which is odd, because if I conceived, my due date would be in April according to FF... so maybe she saw a boy for March/April because I gave birth then. Would be kinda neat. 
Current Fertility Friend Chart. Can see the temp rise, and remaining up. :) 1 more week to go, and then I am testing.
  Lots of baby dust to all! Keep faith, you'll have your day soon.

2 Week Waiting Period

I am in what TTCers call the "2 week waiting period"

It is believed that I ovulated somewhere between CD20 and CD21 based on tempuratures.

I got my blood test results back and the only thing that seems to be missing is Insulin.

Testosterone was 0.24
HydroxyProgesterone was <40
DHEAS was 81
Androstenedione was 109
Glucose was 84
BUN was 10
Creatinine was 0.66
Sodium was 139
Potassium was 3.9
Chloride was 105
CO2 was 27
Anion Gap was 7
Calcium was 9.5
Estimated GFR was >60
Prolactin was 10.6
TSH was 3.40
Free T4 was 1.06
Thyroid Peroxidose Antibody was 15
LH was 10.6
FSH was 5.4
Progesterone was 0.34
SHBG was 14
Beta HCG was 5


I am trying to not get my hopes up. Fertility Friend says that I am due for Aunt Flow to pay a visit on the 31st. I have not been feeling any pregnancy signs, or any symptoms of PMS. With Gabriella, I did not feel any pregnancy symptoms either. 14 days past ovulation will be on the 3rd of August 2012.
I am going to wait until than to test because I don't want to test too soon. I will only test if aunt flow does not come and I miss my period.

Chart:


This is what my chart looks like for 2 cycles. This is for June and July.

My First Cycle was kind of long after the removal of my birth control. 

It was From April 13th to June 1st. Cycle Days were a total of 49 days. I did not chart during these days.

My Second Cycle was June 1st to July 1st, and was 29 Cycle Days. June was also my first month on Metformin and Fertibella. 

My Third Cycle was July 2ed - July 5th. 


I have my second endocrinology appointment on the 1st of August and we are going to be discussing all of these things. Wish me luck!

*baby dust* to all!

Trans Vaginal Ultrasound Report

Gynecological Report
(Signed Final 07/01/2012 08:17 pm)

Patient Info
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ID: 091195 D.O.B.:
Name: APRIL DRIESSE Visit Date: 06/30/2012

Performed By
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Performed By: Julie A Pollinger RDMS
Referred By: GUDDETI PALLAVI MD
Accession#: 5010378
Location: Manchester

Procedures
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GYN PELVIC TRANSVAGINAL ONLY 76830

Indications
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PCOS

Hx Comments
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Unknown LMP

Uterus
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Uterus: Present
Position: Anteverted
Size(cm) L: 6.9 W: 5.19 H: 3.94 Volume(cc): 73.9

Endometrium
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Endometrium: Normal appearance
Thickness(mm): 10.36

Cervix
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Normal appearance
Right Ovary
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Status: Visualized

Size(cm) L: 3.46 W: 2.05 H: 2.18 Volume(cc): 8.1

Morphology: Normal appearance

Comment: PCOS appearance.Greater than 15 follicles seen

Left Ovary
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Status: Visualized

Size(cm) L: 3.07 W: 2.43 H: 2.11 Volume(cc): 8.2

Comment: PCOS appearance .Greater than 15
follicles.Echogenic ring around follicle in LTO

Diagnosis
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Polycystic ovaries

Impression
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Normal sized anteverted uterus with normal
myometrial echotexture.
Thickened endometrium measuring 10.4mm.
Bilateral ovaries with polycystic features (>15
peripheral follicles)
No free pelvic fluid noted.

This ultrasound report with graphs is available for
review in our Faculty copy of AS Software Inc.
Cecelia L Clemans, MD
Electronically Signed Final Report 07/01/2012 08:17 pm

Component Results

There is no component information for this result.

General Information

Collected:

6/30/2012 11:59 AM

Resulted:

7/1/2012 8:18 PM

Ordered By:

PALLAVI GUDDETI, MD

Result Status:

Final result

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Peaks and Mountains

This month has been filled with lots of peaks and mountains. Stress. Emotions. Loss. Grief. Pain. Suffering. Happiness. Sorrow. You name it. The emotion was felt.

It is very hard to deal with so many emotions at one time. Especially the ones I felt regarding my Aunt Robin. It is still so very hard to deal with. August 1st 2012 will be exactly a month to the day that my aunt Robin was murdered. See Article HERE: http://www.floridatoday.com/article/20120708/CRIME/307080021/Cops-Man-likely-killed-girlfriend-self-over-breakup

Rest in Peace Aunty Robin. I love you and Miss You. Your always in my heart.
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RIP Aunty. I love you so much.
Robin Lee Ainsworth
Visit to Florida in Aug 2009. Left to Right: Aunty Robin, My Mother Rita, Me, Gabriella, 3mos old, My Nana Rita Ainsworth, and my sister Felicia.
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 Going back to the month of July...

July started off fairly emotional. I had my period and was pretty irritable. Fights with Alex, my sister, my mother. Everything was just overwhelming. Aunt Flow came to visit me from July 2ed - 5th 2012. As I was coming off of Aunt Flow, my mother was arriving at the airport with my grandmother for my sisters wedding, which was July 8th 2012.

On Friday July 6th 2012, I got a phone call from my mother. She was hysterical. It was pretty obvious what had happened. My Aunt Robin was murdered by her boyfriend Glenn, of thirty years. Aunty Robin was supposed to be arriving with my mother and grandmother for my sisters wedding. I could not comprehend that someone would do this to the person they love. I remember telling my Uncle Mike that if this was a sick joke, it was not funny.

From the week of July 6th to July 12th, I spent that feeling grieving. Feeling emotions anything from anger, hatred, wondering why, disbelief, sadness, pain, and depression. I was dealing with it by trying to pretend it did not happen. The entire family agreed that we were not going to say anything until after my sisters wedding.














At my sisters Wedding, it was a bittersweet event, because she was going to be given away to her new family and her new life. She was also 6 months pregnant, so it was bittersweet because she was starting her own life, her own family, and she was growing up. Her husband Greg asked us where Robin was, and we told him, and he and his dad decided it was best to tell her before the wedding. We told her, and she cried, but knew Aunty Robin wouldn't want her wedding day to be ruined. So she continued on, and the ceremony was beautiful.

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The second week of the month was emotional because my boyfriend Alex decided he felt unloved, and he did something very stupid. He messaged my best friend, and asked her if she would take him on a date. Little did he know she was my best friend, and sent me the entire conversation. I was so angry at him. He decided he didn't want to be with me anymore. My mother told me he would come back, and he did. He came back a day later, and told me he was stupid, wrong and made a dumb decision. We are going to relationship counseling to try to work on things. If that does not help things, than unfortunately, we have to let go, and move on, as best friends.

Because of all the stress in the first two weeks, my cycle was messed up. My chart looked Annovulatory with peaks and mountains. The peaks and mountains are typical of PCOS and generally means that I was not going to ovulate that month.

Here is my chart to date:



You can clearly see the peaks and mountains in this cycle. I thought I was going to get my positive on CD18, but it was really a fade-in to a positive. 

Here are my OPTK's for the month.

CD18: Fade into a positive

CD20 POSITIVE OPTK - You can clearly see the T side is darker than the C side, C is Control, T is test.


CD21: Test is lighter than the Control Line. This is called a "Fade Out"

 What does this mean? Fade-In's look like positive results, but they are work ups to ovulation. This means CD18 detected the LH Surge, than on CD20 I ovulated, and my fade-out today on 7-22-12 which is CD21, means that I am fading out, and going into luteal phase.

So Despite my Annov Cycle via Charting, I still did ovulate. This is why Charting is not 100% all the time in detecting ovulation. I am fairly regular with cycles. Last months OPTK was on CD18. I tested regularly this month. Now I get to play the waiting game and see when Aunt Flow Comes, if she comes, and when my blood work results come what those are.

Much Love and Baby Dust to all who are TTC. I am not TTC at the present time, due to health conditions and concerns, but if it happens, than I will go from there. Until that day comes, when the time is right, I will not actively try for a baby, and focus on my health.

*baby dust*

April

Cycle # 2!! Started on CD29!~!

Well, I am excited. On Cycle #1, CD29, I started getting some odd spotting. I thought maybe it was implantation bleeding, and told myself by 7-5-12 I would be taking a test if aunt flow didn't pay her visit. She decided on CD30/Cycle #2, CD1, she was going to pay a full fledge visit and stick around.

Strangely, I did not mind. What I hated was the way Metformin was making me feel. I spent the ENTIRE night last night on 7-2-12 in the bathroom, either vomiting my brains out until I had no stomach content left, or it was coming out the other end.

I guess the wonderful thing is that obviously the Metformin is working, and no ovulation drugs like Clomid is needed, and the Metformin combined with Fertibella is regulating my cycles, because I ovulated last month, BUT -- I am very weary because this is the first time I've ever been normal in my entire life.

On 6-30-2012, I had a trans-vaginal ultrasound which confirmed my diagnosis of polycystic ovarian syndrome. There were several follicles on my ovaries consistent with the diagnosis of PCOS. The doctor wants me to continue working out at the gym, and to also eat low carb.

I have an appointment with a Nutritionist on 7-6-12 and so that means I have to track everything I eat from 7-4-12 and on. I hope the nutritionist can provide some sort of guidance as to a low-carb diet.

So in the end, Fertibella is working, and Metformin is also. I bought a BBT Temp, and am going to track vaginally after aunt flow goes away. I am also focusing alot this month because this month is baby month for us :)

Medication Struggles...

Have you ever struggled with taking your medications? I am so sick of taking all of these medications sometimes, that I want to rip my hair out. I struggle with taking them daily, even though I set alarms, write reminders, have a pill box that sorts them out, ect. I can't crush them because they say do not crush.

I am making it my goal to take all my meds, but if you were on 20 different pills you had to take 3 times a day, wouldn't it be hard for you to take them too?

CD29, Spotting?

Well, this is odd...

Every time I talk about when aunt flow will pay me a visit, she always finds a way to sneak in her visit early.

I've been on 2000mg of Metformin daily, 0.05mcg of levothyroxine for my thyroid, and also am taking fertibella to aid in my wanting a child...

It is CD29 according to fertility friend, and I have had some interesting cramping all day, so I figured I would check my cervix...

My cervix is high, cervical fluid is sticky, and clumpy, and it is blood tinged. Am I spotting on CD29? Wow!

We shall see, tomorrow, if aunt flow pays her visit on CD30. Or if my body is playing tricks on me again. I've been tired lately, worn down since CD26, and I have horrible acne breakouts, with a BFN for pregnancy...

I had my transvaginal ultrasound on 6-30-2012, and that was interesting. When the Endocrinologist reviews these results, I will post another blog about it.