Coparenting.

It's been a journey.
It's been a hard, long journey.
So many ups and downs in this thing called life.
There are so many things I could say.
There are so many things that are felt.
There are a lot of people that are talking.
Everyone has a story and this idea as to why a once beautiful in your eyes family is no longer together.
Truth is.
Sometimes things don't work out.
Sometimes things fall apart.
Sometimes people grow apart.
Sometimes love isn’t enough anymore.
And sometimes, there’s so much hurt, that cannot be repaired.
As an outsider, looking in, of course you want to see that picture-perfect image, of a little perfect family with a white picket fence
And of course, that’s my dream.
That was my dream for you, and for your sister, and all my children.
But we are all human.
We have our faults.
We stumble and fall.
We make mistakes.
We try again and again, and again, hoping that it will work out.
 And in the end sometimes things just aren't what you hope they are.
You get a small glimpse of reality but honestly in the end it's what you choose to see.
I used to sit and think that there were families I’d love to be like.
I can count them on my fingers.
That is how many people I look up to and wanted to model my family after.
I think we all do it.
We all read between the lines.
We all have that dream that we want.
We all want that white picket fence, perfect family life.
We all don’t want to think about the reality….
The reality that a family may not be the family we once had in mind….
Co-parenting is not what I ever had planned for you, my son.
Didn’t cross my mind after the many chances that were given.
Didn’t cross my mind when I let them back in.
Definitely didn’t cross my mind, when you were born after a five-year infertility battle, and so much loss.
Of course, it's not.
We all want that picture perfect family, right?
Well, I'm be very opened with you all right now.
We are no longer that picture perfect family.
How do you know we ever were?
We are now just two parents simply raising a beautiful miracle and we are doing our best.
Two different people. Now two different lives, and two different families.
But.
One remains the same.
Our Son. Our world. His Journey.
In two different homes. In two very different families. Raising one very amazing, little miracle.
One that looking back, that we never thought would ever happen.
Please, keep in mind when you hear one side of a story.
That's just it. One side.
And even then,
All that matters is one thing.
Our time that we have with Lucius-John and watching him grow into this marvelous little human being.
I love you son.