An Infertility Poem...

“It’ll happen one day”

10 years trying, 10 years

My body just doesn’t work as it should

It might, granted, it might!

And pigs may fly – as true as that.

It could, I understand that

But it hasn’t

And as odds stand, its unlikely to happen by itself

But 10 years trying, 10 years

It just as easily might not happen one day

“You just need to relax”

10 years trying, 10 years

My body won’t release the eggs it should

My husband and I are in a loving relationship

We are very relaxed in each other’s company

We relax at home, we relax on holiday

And as odds stand, I spend more time relaxed than stressed

But 10 years trying, 10 years

If relaxing were the answer, where is the proof?

“Stop thinking about it”

10 years trying, 10 years

My body doesn’t think or work as it should

Have you tried not to think about family or whats for tea?

What about your biggest desire?

This is what I want, this is my biggest desire.

I keep myself busy to take my mind off and enjoy life as much as I can

And as odds stand, I think about it less than experts say men think about sex

But 10 years trying, 10 years

If I could stop thinking, I would, but I can’t

“This friend of mine…..”

10 years trying, 10 years

My body isn’t like your friends, its not doing as it should

It maybe a suprise to learn I too have friends like yours

Women have them every day, where bodies don’t betray

Many of whom have been trying for years

And as odds stand, don’t you think I already know this?

But 10 years trying, 10 years

I wish your friend was me, but she isn’t.

“You’d make a great mum”

10 years trying, 10 years

My heat and my mind yearn for this chance

An aching and a longing that won’t go away

Monthly tears and frustration

Christmas Day, Mother’s Day pass me by

Leaving a scar in their wake

And as the odds stand, I know I’d be a great mum

But 10 years trying, 10 years

Won’t someone please give me the chance

“Don’t give up”

10 years trying, 10 years

My hope won’t give up, its doing all it can

Officially too old – according to the rules

Officially too fat – according to the rules

The reason being the same reason I can’t

On one long eternal diet

And as odds stands, I’m a very positive person

But 10 years trying, 10 years

How much longer do I have to wait?